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2nd day of CNY argh. it's the second day of Chinese New Year. and I aint feeling very good. it must be the weather. oH i'm in a hell of a bad mood. i havent been talking very much lately to *him and *himē. ok maybe more to *himē. but there just is a void emptiness. dont ask me what. i really dont know. sometimes i feel like i'm totally not loved. at all. Yesterday there was a huge fight at home between me and dad over some trivial matter. i dare say i wasnt totally at fault. it was him who started all the flaring up over nothing. pissed the hell outa me. besides the point, i've been feeling down the whole day yesterday n all. before i could really tell *himē abt what happened, we both had gone offline. and before i could tell him what happened on sms.. i fell asleep. exhausted by the going ons of the whole day yesterday. All is upsetting, it's such a gloomy day. no one's here to listen, no one can comfort. how am i to relate what i feel and my reasons behind them? i've got perfectly logical explanations for everything. but no one's available to listen. frustrated as i am, i still have to keep just quiet. no one to talk to, no one to pour my troubles to.. ah.. bother.. happy new year everyone |
